PROUDFLESH: A New Afrikan Journal of Culture, Politics & Consciousness

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It's hard to swallow.

Having that feeling that you're not moving forward.

The past is threatening your future.

You keep saying:

"I won't go back. I won't go back."

Just like Dorothy in The Wizard of Oz—except the opposite desire.

So many people are playing a part in their own destruction that your own hands become dirty.

Focusing so hard on avoiding their clouds that you forget to keep walking. Watching the train wrecks, I forget to keep looking at the road ahead.

Do I pull over and try to save someone's life or should I try to save my own? Every bit of compassion is smothered in guilt these days.

It's hard to feel.

Actually it’s not so hard to feel, it is extremely dangerous.

With revolution on the tongue, I pray for guns.

Mostly because of the worry that courage to use the knife may not come when needed.

Bullets travel further distances than blades.

But I feel more African when I'm brave . . .

Citation Format:

Slavenamegoeshere. “"Delayed Epiphany",” PROUDFLESH: A New Afrikan Journal of Culture, Politics & Consciousness: Issue 4, 2006

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